“Most people never run far enough on their first wind to find out if they’ve got a second. Give your dreams all you’ve got and you’ll be amazed at the energy that comes out of you.”
William James 1842-1910, Author
This quote touches down for me, particularly today. When I’m doubting myself. My capabilities. My ambitions. My reality.
I’m writing up a “Save the Date” memo for the summer writing studio I’m planning for my young writing students. As with most of my lesson plans and correspondence, I have my 10-yr-old son proofread it before it goes out.
“What would get you really excited about signing up for this studio?” I ask him.
So he gives me his feedback: more of this writing exercise, less of that. He gives me ideas from his classroom projects and tells me what was boring or confusing in past workshops I’ve taught. Ouch!
“I’m not saying this to hurt your feelings, Mom,” he says. He’s honest. Brutally honest, but with a touch of compassion.
I coax more feedback from him. After all, this whole young writers’ group was his creation. It is extremely helpful, however it may sting.
But when all is said and done, my overactive critical Scorpio mind begins to put up protective walls and tear down my “never give up!” attitude.
So, I go to my husband, who is more realistic and grounded than I am.
“Mar, are you kidding? Look at all you’ve done. You were panicked about the Saturday classes, then your keynote speech and they always work out. You always do a great job! You have students emailing their stories to you for your opinion.” He hugs me. I feel a bit more relieved.
I decide to unplug, no more emails, blog, calendars or to-do lists for tonight. We watch Mr & Mrs Smith on cable.
Now, I’m trying to figure out how to cram 2 hours of hard core aerobics into my day to get my body even close to looking like Angelina Jolie’s.
*sigh* It never ends…